So

so NUS has a ridiculous cut off point of 42 points specifically for the 'high-flying' IB kids.

so they forgot about the not so high flying ones.

so im still waiting for my pilot application to fill out.

so everything suddenly seems so uncertain again.

so plans seem like they arent so solid anymore.

so, be it. let God take this cup from me and give me a heart of peace.

so let God take my burden and grant me reprieve.

"Bob made a visible effort to compose himself: 'We had to turn back, and we did... We forgot the most elementary thing, you see, although it was right in front of us all the time. When we went through the time-rip in the first place, everyone on the plane who was awake disappeared... Logic suggests that if we try to go through that way, we will disappear' "

August Rush

let go, let God - famous words.

august rush is amazing, HIGHLY recommended. (even though i watched it online, heh)

i still have my IOC schedule and IB Examination schedule on my wall; for some reason i dont feel like taking it down. i believe i have a habit of hanging on to the past.

in loving memory of

how would you like to relive the memories of your past every single day?

i miss alot of things of the past. how people drift. how the fabric of reality tears. how the cookie crumbles.

i used to think i knew where i was going, i used to think i was confident of my direction, confident of myself. now im just another mortal pushed around by the faceless crowds, into the unknown. now im just another follower trying to hit it out alone.

where are my pillars? where is my support? what used to be, what never will. where are you now, as im swimming through the stereo? am i becoming a cacophony rather than a symphony of sound?

i think ill go to boston.

i like the way how everything im saying sounds so literary and cheem. goes to show ns doesnt make people dumb, ha.

actually its all pretty simple. its 1:06am, and im tired, and im rambling.

morning brings out the reluctant genius in me.

the funny thing is, tomorrow morning (or later this morning) ill look out this post and go, huh? what in the world was i talking about?

ha ha.

Strange things

it has been a strange start to the year. adjusting to many changes.. still trying to.

adaptation isnt one of my strongest traits.

in this past 2 months ive pushed through 9 weeks of army life, applied for NUS, made and lost friends, fell sick and got better, and fell sick again, got darker, lost hair, found out one tree hill and house had new episodes, watched all of them, lost a camera phone and used a lousy phone, got God of War (finally) for psp, attempted to keep close to God, failed sometimes.

ill give myself 50/100.